I was just thinking about someone else touching you and now I can’t decide on whether I want to break their hands or my own.
some details from yesterday’s event • lettering, table styling, an amazing amuse bouche from the @offthebeatenpathweddings culinary team, & a stunning sun set to make the day just that more perfect for amanda & matt. #love #calistoga #offthebeatenpath #design #styling #culinary #nature #sky #wedding #lettering
i love when work comes home with me. happy sunday, & happy pomegranate season!
#throwback to my first menu design. probably one of my favorites too :)
doctor’s notes + love notes
this need for him is a recurring theme in my life. as much as i know what the right thing to do is, i find myself just dying for another touch, another look. i so badly want to be past this - but i still can’t find the reason he had to break us apart. more than a month later, he is still begging for another chance and continuously reminding me that he will be there at my beck and call. but i’m always confused, haunted, and lonely. i am so eager to complete our story, tell him the words we both want to hear, “come over”. he leaves these notes behind, and i want to ask if he ever thought about leaving them like this before he left, but there is no point. but i keep them, still. i don’t know why.
i went to my doctor today and i once again fell apart in his office. he’s prescribed me some happy pills and a heavy dose of counseling. it’s probably what i will need to move on, i hope, because i can’t keep going on this way. there is so much passing me by that i know i can be happy about, but i just don’t feel that way anymore. no attention span to anything but the absence of someone i lost.
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p.s. sorry i’m not sorry for all this break-up talk. writing is a helpful way for me to cope, and i am only doing it for myself. hopefully it’s not too annoying.
thanks cassie. xo